i am so weak

my mood got distracted so much when i see you.

it proves how important are you in my life.

even i don't see you in person, but hearing news from you are way enough to torture me. i can't stop thinking even i desperately wanted to. 

the guiltiness in me never subside till today.

even i've been told that is nothing got to with me.i still feel bad in all ways and i don't know why.

i am so weak that i chose to hide myself, isolate myself, lied to myself to not think about it.

i am so weak that i do not want to face it.

i am so weak that i can't handle the stress and the problems. 
can i stop all this craps and get back to a normal life? 
i am so tired!