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finally i hv made a decision... i hv told him indirectly tat i intend to break which he had noticed n asked me whether i reli wan to do so... act i reli reli dunno wan to do , i hv confused myself for a very long period..i noe i shud nt do dis to him , i shud nt jz hold him n wasted his time...dis had hpn quite a long time d, jz tat i dunno wat to do n im bz wit my things , so i jz pretend nth hpn... v both noe the prob has come out but v jz dun wan any changes so v choose to pretend nth had hpn... true, it reli works at 1st... v reli can take it nth hpn, but nw v both realised tat v cant jz do tat... i think im the one who is the worst.. he alwyz told me he missed me n love me n dun wan to lose me.. but i jz dun care n din reply his msg cz i jz thought it is bored n no topic to talk d...i reli n evil gal , y am i so evil...hw can i do dis to others... im hurting other ppl...y is dis hpn to me , i neva intend to hurt any1 but y dis time? i reli felt im bad n i reli reli bad...afta he told me tat he wan to b fren wit me ,v end our 9 months n 20 days sweet memories today! when he told me tat i felt a moment of heartache n i cried... y? i thought i dun luv him anymore n i shud b no feelings when he said so... i shud b relieve n hepi enuf cz he had let go.. wat do i wan avt? wat izit? y i felt tat? y shud i waste his time...i hv go aginst my principle, i shud nt do tat.. COME BCK IVY , COME BCK...stop evrthing n go bck to wat u use to b... b concious dear!!! nw everything had chg n go back to the very begining... lets focus on SPM nw, STOP THINKING ABT ALL THE NONSENCE...FOCUS ON WAT U SHUD FOCUS!!! i can do it , n tat is IVY!!!